kaiyenpeppers.
Nothing here is absolute, everything is indefinite. With each and every event in my life, I take what I can learn, and I search for every angle of refinement in it. This gives me the power to determine who and what I am.


EL GUINCHO-Bombay:
It’s too beautiful to explain it in words… just watch it. It brought tears to my eyes the second time I watched it because it’s absolutely perfect.
What is happening..?
The most beautiful thing about living in Austin, Texas, has to be the people you encounter. Coming from such a structured and traditional community in which everyone follows the same fashions, has the same mentality, and lives the same lives, I’ve come to appreciate the differences here… My eyes and heart are open with acceptance and the yearning to learn.
I’ve recently had to opportunity to hang out with a few people who have reached a level of comprehension that I’m working my way towards. They’re more accepting, more willing, and more knowledgeable than anyone I’ve ever met- viewing life with both hope and satisaction in who they are. Teach me, teach me!
Introduce me to all forms of music, art, and beauty. Let me understand that wild and imaginative thoughts are acceptable. Assure me that being different is winsome. Show me videos and pictures that teach me individualism to a perfection. Please lift my spirits, trigger my mind, open my eyes…
It’s funny how the only time I really think about or update my tumblr anymore is when I feel… lonely. I guess it’s just the odd form of publicly relieving my sadness to the world in a somewhat private manner…
I feel all alone with no one to lay there and hold me tight for hours, no one to deeply converse with while attempting to cook dinner, no one to share compassion with after a couple of Blockbuster movies. I miss the excitement of looking forward to seeing someone all the time, and I passionately hate how everything I do reminds me of this. Chicken fried steak, blue dodge trucks, walking past 21 Rio every single day, Charlie and Vic, The Office, cigarettes, marketing, the list goes on. I’m continously surrounded by these reminders, and I think it’s slowly and subconsciously breaking me down… I cry when I have no reason to, and I feel unsatisfied when I should be completely happy. When will I figure out what I want? When will everything be alright? Hopefully with a little more time.